Eye roll. Can you use emojis on this thing? I’m not sure. How basic, though, I’m just another cancer patient trying to make it big by starting a blog. If I had a vision board (which I don’t at the moment) it would include a book deal along with a movie deal to set my family up for life after I am gone. Because, my median life expectancy is 1 – 2 years. That is a sobering thought. Especially when you are 31 years old with a son that is less than 1 year old.
I’ve started listening to podcasts and listen to Everything Happens with Kate Bowler – shout out to her! On one of her podcasts she talks about mortality and mentions how her oncologist asked her, “well what is mortality, anyways”? When she shared this with her friend, her friend wisely responded “mortality is dying when you have young children.”
Well, fuck. If I live the expected time for my diagnosis of stage IV breast cancer, my son will be about 3 years old when I die. But, we can’t think about that right now. We are writing a blog. And by we, I mean I am writing a blog – you are hopefully reading this stream of consciousness that I am calling a blog.
Full steam ahead. We aren’t selling our horses just yet. Explanation for that statement to follow in a future post. For now I think I am done writing. Mostly because I don’t know what I am doing, I don’t feel like writing anymore, and more importantly my son is waking up!
Follow me on twitter @reluctantoptim. Instagram account to follow. I’ve become quite the basic bitch. But, as my dad always says “tempus fugit” which means time flies, and I don’t have a lot of time. So fuck it, I’m leaning in.
The Reluctant Eternal Optimist 